just plain wierd

Its just weird. I feel like life is swinging full circle, but in the oddest ways. I have a home again, in the way that it hasn't felt in almost two years. Not just an apartment, but a home. This was inevitable, I know. But you'd be amazed how after 14 months it starts to not feel like it is. And as of today, I am again employed. But here is where it feels even weirder, I am a nanny. No, that probably isn't the most shocking thing you have heard this week, especially if you know me. But for a girl who spent 5 years in Chamber work (about as far from 'nanny' work as you can get with out reaching into the mad scientist realm) it feels a bit surreal.
I am no longer a vagabond. For this week it is a definite reminder that change is the only constant in life, and that God has a healthy sense of humor (I am getting paid to do something I enjoy, gasp!). Both of which I desperately need right now.

3:54 one leisurely afternoon

I'm not really sure when it happened. I think it might have been somewhere around 3:54 one leisurely afternoon a few years back. But somewhere along the line I became a person with opinions and the passion to back them. You have to understand, this is a shocking turn of events. Most of my young life I have been the mellow one, going with the flow rather then creating waves. Then bam! (batman sound effects and all). I suddenly find myself owning the WaveMaker 3000 and studying the instructions.
My roommate and I watched HappyFeet last night. As we took a Chai brake (Thanks to the wonderful C&C for bulk buying) we starting discussing the several undercurrents of the movie and which ones were rubbing us wrong. I got lightheaded before I even realized I had jumped on my soap box and began a rant at altitudes not fit for humans (I attempted to gracefully step down and put it away, but tripped as usual).
Then this morning I was reading the BBC world news site. It is kinda a staple these days in the desperate attempt to remember that yes, in fact there is a world outside the universe know as the USA. They had an article on the New Creation Science Museum opening in Kentucky. Some dear friends of mine are involved with Answers In Genesis, the organizing building it. So I was interested to see what the article said. 5 minutes later I wasn't sure if I wanted to hurl, or just spite the writer. I even looked for the 'feedback button'!!! I have never been that person before!
The article was condescending to say the least. In the end I opted for neither (they didn't have the button) and went for the prayer instead (I even avoided the 'spite them', and went for the 'bless the museum and defend Your truth' one).
It made me again realize how much I have changed. The gusto still doesn't have a whole lot of outlets right now. Prayer seems to be the main conduit I am falling back on. Given some time I get the feeling that will start expanding to.
So for right now, I'll keep reading, keep looking for the feedback button, and keep asking God for humility to match and seasoned words (mine seem to be running for cover as of late).

P.S. Heres the article if your curious. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/from_our_own_correspondent/6549595.stm

Home again home again...

So I was trying to wait. Post pretty pictures and make this a whole shebang. But as usual my life is crazier then that. Soooooo here is the news. I have a home!!!! Yes thats right. 14 months / 59 weeks / 419 days after I walked out of my last apartment, I moved into a new one. Wholly cow. I have the coolest apt. (retro with stove you will have to see pics of to believe), a grand roomy (whom can swap Aussie stories with me), an amazing view (ferries and water, and mountains oh my), all smack in down town of a little town I love so well. Have I mentioned we got an unreal rate?!?!? I am blown away. At Gods amazing grace and provision. I look back at the last year of my life totally amazed, and knowing it was so totally God. And look ahead so incredibly grateful to have a real home for the next 5 months.
Now all I need is a real job and then I won't be a real vagabond anymore. (I have an interview in the morning) Then what ever will I do with myself (GASP :-0)